I'm experimenting a little with this format.
staring up at the sky right now, ow it hurts so badly--can hardly breathe. mommy? can you hear me? course you can't, that's silly. but mommy, it hurts so much. mommy, today i want to a party, even though you told me not to. mommy, i'm so sorry. i'll never do it again. they drank alcohol--i didn't, aren't you proud of me?--but on the way home, mommy, they went out of control and--
it hurts so much! i can't see 'cause the tears are clouding my eyes--why was it me? why didn't it have to be me? i'm not ready to die! i'm only 16!
it's so numb now. my eyes are open but all i see--all i want to see--is you. come quickly, please! stop this pain! it's so bad--
... no, not so bad now. come quickly, mommy. i promise i'll never do it again.